#im in Austria for a Wedding this weekend

[ellenchain]

Happy birthday dear @lucas-grey ♥️

Have a great Friday the 13th and celebrate your birthday! All the best 🎉♥️

Grey even dressed up for your special day (more than his usual black shirt!) and brought you a flower - alive, so you can enjoy it longer 🌹

[ghostspies]

the previous year was great but 2019 has been a full year with my girlfriend whomst i love and i cant imagine anything better, i always thought i'd sort of..be doing things alone but no, this is it; a lot of other things happened but this has been the most defining one; also depression is fully gone i think, i dont have to keep a strict routine anymore im just Livingg; some of the other things that happened include:

spraining my ankle at sisters prom

going to masopust for the first time and its something i can look forward to every year

attending a wedding of ppl my age.....here it comes....... afterwards we drove 6 people in a tiny car, took the fancy clothes off and went for a swim, v fun, then we went for smažák

travelling all day by train to collect seashells to the most beautiful place 😭 by myself..i planned it all and had my own money to pay for it..lifechanging truly; i knew exactly what to do to make myself happy, every day spent there added a year to my lifespan

a trip to the Alps with my gf, we had a propane heater in a tiny room, fishe served in paper eaten by a lake, a broken boot

Marseille 😭 the museum exhibit, the city itself at night, rats, just being dve kocicky in a přímořský město in general, flying, and again knowing exactly what we want and being able to do it; then some smaller summer weekend trips, like swimming in a dirty rybník in kařez, walking through kutná hora like an old couple, and just choosing random places to go by train + berlin now in autumn

also going camping to austria with my dad and sister just like when we were little, singing by the campfire and playing hide and seek, the purest trip you can imagine

finally making and firing my own ceramics

getting asthma somehow :/

sunprinting on silk, trying camera obscura again; diy lip balms, tie dye, bleaching black clothes, sewing some as well, discovering those rly cheap second hand stores with 10kc tshirts.

making an art piece for a queer party with karolina lol

Finally !! getting additional ear piercings

FIN A L L Y managing to go to the dentist, one of my biggest fears

reading a book on joan of arc

getting to learn more about philosophy and history, materials, objects, true crime and psychology, physics, mostly through podcasts and books and going to museums

andd His dark materials series came out aa

i keep trying to make more art or just draw but i can feel it getting harder

aand i feel like i got a little bit uglier but thats ok

at work i had to learn to order all the art supplies from all our suppliers and i kind of run the store now lol, thats a bit stressful but i prefer it to just selling them bcs i know more and can be more confident; also my old coworker left and i got the most u s e l e s s w o m a n instead, she rly kept testing me

i have enough energy to message ppl first, think of activities we can do together, even spend more time with my family

in conclusion: the proper teenage summer i never had, the whole year was so pleasant

for 2020 i wanna: be even less rigid and still and afraid and just do things more spontaneously and stay in movement, learn more about things im interested in, maybe buy or download some textbooks?

try and draw more, even if its just traing the skill and not being creative

be more social and take iniciative and help and not just drag along most of the time